Stress

Stress does a lot of strange things to people. For me, it is weight gain and a lack of sleep and I am fighting both right now. I know exactly what the cause of my stress is (work), and I know logically that I should not be stressed about all of what is happening because it is beyond my control. I know that I am doing what I can to fulfill my part of the job, but for some reason, my subconscious or some other physiological force is not listening to my brain and it is beginning to get to me.

I have a few things I like to do when I am stressed and have been cycling through them in hopes of some relief. I have taken up running recently and so I have been trying to run when it gets overwhelming. Some days this works very well. I do not typically run multiple days back-to-back, but I may start soon just to keep a grip on things.

Oddly enough, I also like to clean my house. The sad part is that when I am stressed, I tend to put off cleaning, so I not doing an action that actually would make me feel better. How is that for logic?

Reading also helps, but this is a tricky one, especially depending on the book or article. I have had some instances where the story I was reading stressed me out more because events were too similar to what I was facing at the time.

Cooking is another stress reliever that I have to be careful with since there is the distinct possibility that I will cook and eat something I would normally avoid when not on edge.

So here I am, a bundle of nerves and stress. I know what the problem is and some solutions, but I cannot find a good fix right now that will get me past this period. My best bet it is to keep doing what I can and be very conscious of what this time is doing to me.